Thursday, May 14, 2009

Truth

Over the past few months, one concept has occupied my mind over any other, and that is Truth. Throughout my life, I've tried to incorporate this concept into my everyday. I'm no where near perfect, and as such, have not always been able to be honest, or stay honest, and definitely not imply honesty in all that I do.

However, I think it's been on my mind lately because I've come to find, over and over again, that it truly is the most important thing about a relationship, and most importantly, I've come to find that the majority of mine, it hasn't been there.

I have never claimed, nor do I claim now, that I haven't lied in a relationship or allowed the other party to believe a lie...but the older I get, the more I know that I no longer wish lies or untruth to be a part of my relationships, from my side or hers.

Thinking back, being in a relationship where you feel you can trust the other person completely is a powerful thing - it gives you confidence to always be yourself, always speak your mind, and to know that when things are great, they truly are...it's not a figment of your imagination, there's no magic spell or time limit before the illusion disappears, it just...is. It also allows for very open communication when problems do arise, but that's a completely different blog in the making.

Truth - such an easy concept, yet something that eludes almost all of us at one time or another, but why is that? My thought is that it's because we, or at least I, are afraid to really allow someone to see us bare, as we truly are. A la Clint Eastwood - the Good, the Bad, and the Ugly. It's unnerving to know that someone can know us so completely and not be afraid or disgusted with the things they see, but if we were to all look at ourselves with Truth behind our eyes, we would see that every single one of us has that within us, if we could just admit that to ourselves.

Suffice it to say, there are very few people I've ever met that when I first think of them, the first character trait that comes to mind is trustworthiness. There are a few, and because of them, my heart is happy, and I think I need to make it a priority to befriend and reconnect with more individuals like them.